Sunday, December 07, 2008

especially not if I had to drink my own pee

Although I know there's very little chance of me and Ace becoming stranded on the Siberian tundra/on a Kenyan savannah/in Death Valley/in the Costa Rican rain forest/whateva, I still get irrationally depressed when I watch Man vs. Wild thinking about how if I ever were to get in such a situation, no way would I be able to get us out.

I seriously don't get this depressed watching Law and Order: SVU and that's all about rapes and stuff.

Because of Ace being premature, I have a very serious complex about not being able to protect him. That complex rears its ugly head in the strangest places.

9 comments:

Jo said...

Hey... just a little FYI.... it's not because he's a preemie :)

Although, my complex probably isn't as massive as yours... I have the same fears of not being able to keep my baby safe.

I think it might be more from how hard it was to get them in the first place...

Big Hugs! If you were ever stranded on the blah blah blah island... you wouldn't have a problem drinking your own pee ;)

Hey... my word verf is "dowees"... sounds like something Ace would say :)

mrs. misenar said...

i think that means your a good mama! i could do weird things if it meant me helping jude.

btw: miss your face! can we play settlers when seth gets back from AZ?

Dr. Wifey said...

i read in the news yesterday that my boy Bear Grillz got hurt in Antarctica - just a shoulder injury, nothing life threatening. when i watch Man Vs. Wild, i just tell myself i would go ahead and die quickly

i'm black betty said...

girl, bring on the strange. i'd do WHATEVER to get the hell out of da TUNDRA! pee? no prob? now, sh*t...i really have to consider it. j/k

you're a good mama. believe me, you do it. :)

From the Doghouse said...

Our astronauts have developed a program to drink their own pee too. Mmmm. Give a whole new meaning to "Tang."

mayberry said...

Yeah. I wouldn't last a day.

Watercolor said...

I couldn't eat bugs. Or worms. yuck. I'd die.

sinister_n_evil said...

honey... what you are feelin is natural... every mom goes through it... each of us just handles it differently...

take me for instance... i chose the self physical therapy, sign up at the 'Y', tazer toten route...

so my point is... if you feel too fragile for you son... do something about it...

hugs...

Paula said...

Maybe other preemie moms feel differently, but having had both a FT kid and a preemie, I can tell you that there sure WAS a difference in how I felt about my ability to protect each of them. Note the use of the past tense, however - that feeling does eventually fade...