Saturday, October 11, 2008

Well, that's that.

The Big Event happened yesterday. I woke up at about 5:45 in awful, awful pain and spent the rest of the day on the couch. I can't believe how much it feels like labor pain... but I guess, in a way, that's exactly what it is.

I was only allowed to take 1 Napralen (high dose Aleve) every 12 hours, so I hit the oxycodone left over from my c-section at about 3pm. At about 7, when I couldn't eat, couldn't walk, could barely move - I didn't even want chocolate! - I called the doctor's office. She said, in a manner of speaking, that I was high. She told me to take some phenergan if I had it (I do) and if I didn't feel better soon, I was welcome to go to the ER. Awesome.

(WHO THE HELL TAKES OXYCODONE FOR RECREATIONAL PURPOSES???)

Half an hour or so after taking the phenergan, I felt well enough to eat. I ate like thirty Ritz crackers with peanut butter and felt much better, till the "may cause drowsiness" of the phenergan hit me like whoa. I fell asleep on the couch at about 9, went to bed at 11, then woke up this morning at 8:30 after some bizarre dreams. Now, I'm hung over.

In any event, it's done. It was disgusting and painful and awful and I feel sad and empty and lonely. And still in a little bit of pain, which is just not fair. I don't know if I want to get out of the house today and put this all behind me (except the memory of my baby, which will stay with me forever) or if I want to spend just one more day on the couch. Given the level of my hangover, I will at least be spending the rest of the morning on the couch.

19 comments:

Old Bopper said...

God be with you and bless you Stacey. Look at Ace and smile. You are blessed with a wonderful family.

Praying for you and Drew.

CluckyRN said...

Love ya.
Mean it.

Sharon said...

Mega hugs. I just...I don't know. I know how hard this is, including the physical pain.

Do you have info for healing, physically?
I guess I didn't pay close enough attention to mine. I had finally stopped bleeding about 3-4 days after, but then it started back up again. Scared the crap out of me, which is the only reason I'm sharing with you. Knowing what could happen, kwim?

Rest and do what feels best for YOU. I'm praying for ya.
Love ya!

Dr. Wifey said...

praying for you, hun
luv ya

Emma B. said...

Bless your heart, sweetie.

dhcoop said...

Oh Stacey! I'm so hugging you mentally right now!!! Bless your heart. There are no words...

i'm black betty said...

i'm so sorry, honey.
you're still in my prayers.
love you.

Dima said...

I'm so sorry Stacey. I hope you're feeling better soon.

clstigger said...

Been thinking about you the last couple of days. Glad to hear from you. Will continue to pray for you.

RhondaLue said...

I'm sorry you had to endure that. I'm glad you're feeling some better today.

Hang on the couch as long as you feel like it. :(

Watercolor said...

Aw sweetie. hugs and love to you.

HEATHER said...

Praying for you ladybug!
I am so sorry that you are having to go through this.
This is just awful.
((HUGS))

Jennifer said...

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

*hugs*

I can only imagine...I just wish there was something I could say or do to make you feel better...

I'm still praying and sending good thoughts your way!

:o(

Sandi said...

Stay on the couch as long as you need to. And call if you need a baby sitter. I'll be glad to help out.

Jen said...

I have been thinking about you & hoping to hear from you soon. I was hoping you are ok (as much as you can be at this time)..LOve & prayers & hugs. Take care of yourself.

Jo said...

Stacey, there just are no *right* words. I am sorry. I wish this hadn't happened.

If only there was the perfect thing to say to take it all away.

Big Hugs!!!

mayberry said...

Still praying for you and thinking of you.

From the Doghouse said...

Take care of you.

Erin Steele (previously Domeyer) said...

That all sucks! Try to do whatever you need to be comfortable. We are all thinking about you!