Monday, September 08, 2008

Well, crap.

Remember how the number was 10? And I said that it should be between 35 and 40? Well, technically, the number is supposed to double in 24-48 hours for a viable pregnancy. So technically again, it would've been okay if the number today had been between 25-30.

It was 33.

Since I know exactly what day this baby was conceived (a-chicka-wow-wow), it must have implanted late or I ovulated later than I thought.

I may have a viable pregnancy. This ticks me off for the following reasons:

-Instead of delivering the news to Drew in the creative manner that I've thought about for the past 2 years, I had to start out telling him about this pregnancy by saying "I'm miscarrying."
-I told everyone on my blog before I told anyone in my family. I still don't know when I should tell them.
-I'm still scared, even more so now that I have hope. I started off my last pregnancy scared, which caused a big emotional wall to build up, which I know has had a lasting impact on my relationship with Ace.
-I didn't lose the weight I wanted to lose... in fact, I'm pretty sure I've gained a few pounds in the past several months. Dang life getting in the way of my weight loss plans.

I'm going back on Thursday for an ultrasound. Dr. M said that 33 is too small a number for anything to show up anywhere, so hopefully if my numbers are in the hundreds by then, we'll be able to see something either floating around happily in my uterus or hanging out dangerously in my tube.

I'm not rolling out the ticker tape parade quite yet, but I do have slightly more hope than before. My girly area hurts, but I cramped heavily for the first 6 weeks or so with Ace, so I just don't know what to think. I'm trying to get excited, but it's so hard...

Before I go, here's a conversation that went on between me, my doctor, and my inappropriately irreverent husband:

Dr. M: I'm gonna give a prescription for progesterone supplements along with your prenatals since your progesterone was low and... well, you know, you did it with your other two.
Me: Yep. Will those be the suppositories?
Dr. M: Yep.
Me: Bummer.
Drew: Heh heh heh. Get it? BUMmer? Suppositories?
Dr. M: *sympathetic smile*
Me: They're VAGINAL suppositories, you idiot.
Drew: Ohhh.

I'm gonna go pee on a stick, even though like four of y'all have told me to stop peeing on stuff. The second line should be much darker now. It's just more fun when you don't have to squint to see the line.


HEATHER said...

Well honey, I am praying for you.
Are you taking your folic acid?

Susan said...

I'll be the outsider here - go pee on whatever you want. =)

Hope the good news continues. I know how much you want this to work!

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sinister_n_evil said...

i had my suspicions but didn't want to get your hopes up... same thing happened to a guy who's wife i work with... i will keep you in my prayers though... just in case...

what you probably had was implantation bleeding... it happens when the embrio has decided to rent your uterus for a while... hopefully it will stay for the full extent of the lease... 9 months or so...



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Jo said...

Oh Stacey... it's so hard NOT to be excited for you! But I also know the pain of ectopic pregnancy (both emotional and physical)... wouldn't your numbers be way higher if it were another EP? I can't remember how that beyotch works.

I will continue to pray that your little pumpkin is right where she's supposed to be :) But my heart says she is ;)


Alice said...

still thinking about you....I need your doc's name.

Watercolor said...

Hope is a good thing. Scary, but good. Hope that isn't a platitude... it what I live by these days. Hugs!! You are much in my thoughts.

Sharon said...

Pee away!!!!

I'm secretly getting so excited for you.
Oh wait, not-so-secretly, huh? ;)

CluckyRN said...

love you...sending much mahna-mahna your way!

pee all you want...heh

Bird said...

Prayers for you and I don't blame you a bit for withholding the excitement--you're protecting yourself. I'll cross my fingers and toes too.

Jen said...

I have peed after the fact before...Actually, for some reason, I still have all the preggo tests from my last twin pregnancy, guess I haven't totally let go yet. SO PEE AWAY, it helps you keep your sanity, I know this. haha

Good Luck Stacey, I am praying for you. :)

Melinda Barton said...

I'm on board with the whole peeing on stuff thing. And I'm crossing everything I can cross.

mayberry said...

I'll be praying hard for you Stace. In fact, I'm gonna go pray for you right now.


Jonathan said...

Well, cousin I must say that I really appreciate all these visuals you're giving me with this here blog.

Amanda Wells said...

Still praying for you! Hang in there!

Deanna said...

Thinking about you and sending you lots of prayers.