Monday, November 07, 2005

I am such an amazing bonehead.

I sure did think I booked my flight for Tuesday, but my itinerary insists that I'm leaving Wednesday. I actually remember thinking "Why did my arrival time suddenly change to 12:20?" Well, because you booked it for Wednesday, not Tuesday, genius. Shoot. Shoot shoot shoot. I have been very seriously crazy-brained lately and I just don't know why.

I tried to cover my tracks and see how much Orbitz would charge me to change to tomorrow and save myself a little dignity. $220. Delta would only charge me $125, but that's the full cost of a rental car. I'd rather fly out a day later, face the ridicule of... well, everybody, and rent my own car. I just feel like such a tool.

Ah well, I reckon I should get over it. I'd like to spend two full days with my husband and then head to Yucaipa, but that's unfortunately not going to happen. Now I just don't know what I'm going to do. I want to spend a lot of time with my goddaughters, but my husband's feelings got hurt when I told him the reason I wanted to fly out there was that I would miss him, then I started making plans to see everyone else. I just have to convince Drew that we'll fly out there together in February for a couple of days to make up for the disappointment I'm going to cause.

Gosh, I feel silly.

On a completely different note, I have something I need to say.

If you have been divorced several times, or if you are in an unhappy marriage, do not expect me to heed your marriage advice. Why would I listen to you, if clearly your advice ain't working? I'm happily married and madly in love with my husband, shouldn't I be giving YOU marriage advice?

Secondly, if you find out that I don't hate my husband, or if you see me hug him, or call him "Muffin," please don't pretend as if we're just in some temporary phase and that we'll hate each other in a couple of years. Don't give me some sly look and say "Just wait" or "You'll see" or "Give it a couple years." I don't want to think that all marriages go kaput after a couple of years. That's so rude, y'all, seriously. It's not as if we never fight, but my marriage is the most important thing in my life and I put nothing except God Himself before it. I'm sure that when we have kids, things will be different, but I will not put my marriage aside.

Anyway, I'm going to go not pack. Guess I'll watch CSI:Miami. Hey, one bonus... I can put my trash out tomorrow night. Awesome, right?


cncz said...

my mother has been divorced several times, but she still gave me one pearl of marriage advice..."all men are aggravating, you just have to decide which one you want to put up with. " :)

No seriously, you are right. I saw this show on tv about how romantic love only lasts between 18 months and 3 years. If that were the case, I would have kicked Nice Husband to the curb already. And God knows if I didn't love him I would have sold him to gypsies. I think sometimes people just cannot handle true adult love and want to hate. I personally think you two have an awesome marriage and are best friends. Symbiotic is the word I would use, and if people can't handle that...

shiksa said...

I'm with you both. Though there are days when I wish the gypsies were on speed dial.