I have felt joy many times in my life.
When I left Indiana to move to New Orleans.
When I became a Christian at 19.
When I was married.
When I found out I was pregnant the first time.
When Ace was born.
When I brought Ace home from the hospital.
Each of those times, however, was tainted with fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of the future, just generalized fear.
I don't know that I'd ever experienced pure, unbridled, unqualified joy. Joy that completely took my body over and rendered me speechless. Joy that made me cry and scream and shake and fall over.
Until last night.
8 hours ago