Anyone averse to a little female TMI? Skip this one.
A few basic facts:
1. I believe life begins at conception.
2. The primary goal of an oral contraceptive is to prevent ovulation. A secondary goal is to thicken the lining of the uterus before menses in order to prevent a fertilized egg from implanting. Therefore, I don't want to go on birth control.
3. I get terrible, terrible PMS, often starting before ovulation and not ending till after my period has begun. PMS is Not Good for people who already have an established history of depression.
4. I cannot use any anti-depressants. I have tried many, and had bad reactions to all. Just saw my psychiatrist today and he's trying me on a new one, but I have zero hope.
Something's gotta give with my PMS though, man. I get depressed and angry right around ovulation time. If I'm lucky, it lets up for a couple days then Hurricane Bitch arrives a solid week before my period is due. Anti-depressants keep me from sleeping, they make me want to eat, they make me want to clean (okay, yeah, not terrible, but I get obsessive), and they make me want to shop.
I keep seeing this commercial for a birth control that can treat PMS from hell. I am certainly intrigued, but to what extent do I want to compromise my morals? I know when I'm ovulating, so I could always avoid sex in case the birth control fails. I could also just avoid sex during the 2nd week of the pill pack. We generally avoid sex during that week anyway, cuz I ain't EVEN tryna get knocked up. I could double up on the preventatives. But there's still always that small chance, and I can't stand that, dude.
I just do not know what to do. Awful, awful mood swings for half the month, or go on birth control, which I have avoided from a moral standpoint for most of my married life?
Blah. I'm gonna give this new anti-depressant a try, but I reckon I just won't sleep for a week then I'll go off it. It's happened 6 other times. Then comes the very real possibility that I will go on the Pill. Shoot.
4 days ago