Friday, July 11, 2008

I'm gonna miss him

Ace got accepted into the school. He starts August 18th.

I've got all these sad questions running through my head... what if he gets sad and just wants his mommy? What if he feels lonely and scared? What if he starts liking the people at TLLH more than he likes me? What if they teach him a bunch of new words and I don't understand what he's saying anymore? At this point, I understand everything he says. I won't anymore.

I'm really, really, really going to miss him, even if it's only 5 hours a day, 4 days a week. It makes the next month extra special, though. Gotta start getting all the stuff I wanted to do, done!

18 comments:

Watercolor said...

Hugs babe.

Jo said...

Awww Stacey! That is great news!! Again, it's bittersweet.

But he'll do fine. If he misses you, the teachers will reassure him that he will see you after school :)

He won't EVER love them more than you. Trust me. Even my students who loved me to death, didn't want to come home with me :)

It will be rough at first... another new journey for you all :)

But you are strong and you can do it and the changes you'll see in Ace will be amazing :) I can't wait to hear the updates :)

BIG HUGS!!!!

sinister_n_evil said...

awe hun... it will be great! he will learn to run before you know it... see, peer pressure works... when some other kid takes the toy he wants to play with... watch how quickly he learns to chase them to get it back...

of course i have all the same crap going through my mind and i am trying to delude myself with the same dribble that i put up there... charles starts on the 19th... and it is a different school from CJ...

when we get lonly... we can call each other...

Jennifer said...

I have been putting off this very thing for awhile now--Everyone is pushing me to get him into preschool--and I know if I really do get pregnant, I might feel better about it...but for now, those same questions are filling my head. Its crazy how fast they grow up....

You're such a good mom! And so strong to do what you know is best for Ace, even beyond your own worries! Its admirable...Congrats on the acceptance!! :o)

rachel said...

i feel ya. jude is starting 2 mornings a week the first of september. we can cry in our coffee one morning if you want???

Nicole Bradshaw said...

Stace,

This is great news! (You shouldn't have asked for the power of my good vibes if you didn't want what you requested. I mean, these vibes that I have are POWERFUL.)

I understand how you feel, though. Tell you what - swing by my place after you drop him off at least once a week. I will be more than happy to comfort you while you cry into your coffee.

mayberry said...

That's wonderful news Stacey! I know you're feeling torn about it, but knowing how excited you've been about Ace's progress over these past few months I know that YOU know that this is going to be great for him.

I was just thinking about Mini-me starting school. I used to think that it wouldn't bother me - I almost broke out in a cold sweat when I realized how close it was getting.

Hang in there babe. You are one of the toughest chicks I "know".

fwapah said...

yaaaaaay!! pre-school today, harvard tomorrow!

Hawkfeather said...

I would feel the same..
I think that seems a universal mommy reaction.

Sharon said...

Growing pains on the parent end are the hardest.
Hugs to you!

But Congrats on Ace getting in!
I can relate to how you feel. Aidan starts preschool in September, and I feel like I have a fast-approaching countdown in my head. One I'm not ready for.

I'm sure Ace will do well. And you, too. ;)

Melinda Barton said...

Go Ace! This is going to be so great for him. He might even learn that not all other children are demon spawn, just some. haha

My sympathy's on seeing him growing up before your eyes. I'm still coping with the grown men who claim their my little baby nephews.

Melinda Barton said...

okay, when did I forget how to spell?

That's "My sympathies" doh!

black betty said...

way to go, ace!!! :)

Christy said...

That is awesome heffa! You got this thing in the bag!! There is NO WAY he could replace you ever, you are way too cool for that.

So don't worry about it, start watching some trashy daytime TV or something like that. he he

He'll be great, you'll do fine :)

From the Doghouse said...

I can just imagine how he's gonna charm his teacher.

Sandi said...

It's going to suck ... in the worst way. But you know he'll be in the care of professionals ... who are used to moms who are letting their children go for the first time. If it gets too hard, just call. It's cool. They know what you're going through.

Supermom said...

I can't believe he is getting in so fast! I got the impression it would take longer. It's going to be great for him!

Patricia said...

Stacey it is going to be so good for him!

A girl in my sunday school class just got a job there. Her name is Heather Reynolds. I don't know how big the staff is there.