Monday, September 25, 2006

I say the word "suck" a lot

Watching your baby scream bloody murder while getting shots SUCKS. Sucks, sucks, sucks. Suckity suck sucks. Thank you. I hate that I have to get him an RSV vaccine every single month from October through April. Well, I reckon I don't HAVE to, but it really reduces the possibility of him contracting RSV.

He's going to have to have surgery in a few months to correct his umbilical hernia. He probably has another hernia in his scrotum. Thankfully, both can be corrected laparoscopically, but damn it. Hasn't my baby been through enough? I'm so glad he won't remember this stuff when he's older. This could not suck more. I hate that my baby, at 6 months old, will have to go through surgery because for some reason, my body sucks so much that I couldn't carry him as long as he needed. Somebody remind me why I'd want to have another baby? I think I'll get my tubes tied while he's getting his hernia corrected.

The doctor told me today that I've passed on all the good stuff that I can through my breastmilk, and at this point, it's just food. That sure made me feel a whole lot better about switching to formula. My production has slowed a lot since he came home, and I just don't know how much longer I can do this. What sucks is that he's finally starting to get the latching on thing, but now my production is so low I'm making maybe a third of what he needs during the day. I feel good for having fed him breastmilk for this long, but I'm just tired of it.

I'm going to go hold my baby for the rest of the day while he cries from the pain in his injection site. My poor baby.


chicklette said...

We always used the infant's tylenol or motrin for injection pain. I don't know if you can use that with a preemie, but please do ask your ped. Our nurse always has us give the tylenol or motrin while she is getting the shot. It really does help-those injections make their little muscles sore.
Poor little boy. Sending him hugs.

Surviving said...

I gave my older two tylenol just before they would get there shots. It helped with some of the fussiness.

I'm surprised they want him to have hernia surgeries so early. With both mine they have not done anything about the umbilical hernias. My oldest did have one for his testicle, but he was about 3. It was due to the fact that it kept swelling up. The doctor said she didn't want to do anything to them unless it was causing them pain or there was a problem with them. Both of their umbilical hernias have improved a lot on their own.