I need a sans-child vacation.
Or, I need to take up drinking.
Or, science needs to come up with a chocolate that makes me neither gain weight nor suffer loose bowels when consumed in mass quantities.
Or, I need a babysitter. Not some 13-year-old little snot. Someone relatively competent.
Or, I need to decide if I want to give up my mom's club or Ace's myriad therapies.
Or, I need an exorcist. Ace has not been a happy child for a good while now, and I have no idea why.
Or, I need an insurance company that I don't have to call to remind them to pay something every single time Ace has an appointment anywhere. I HATE YOU with the fire of a thousand suns, United Healthcare.
Or, I need to stop feeling like an awful mother every single day of my life. I need to stop blaming myself for Ace's prematurity and all the resulting suck, I need to stop getting irritated with him for being so unbelievably fussy ALL THE TIME, and I need to stop feeling bad for feeling frustrated with him.
Or, I need a vacation.
7 months ago
6 comments:
Opt. for the vacation..a lot more fun, a lot less fall out ;)
We are taking the children with us to Cruisin the Coast this year.. I am kinda bummed out about it now, because the children are so pumped up. On the same note all of my friends will be there childless and parting all weekend :(
Oh well.... Guess I'll party with juice boxes and cheese nips.
Girl, first of all, go get you some Ben n Jerry's ok?
For heaven's sake stop feeling guilty about something that you had NO CONTROL OVER. You are an awesome mom and we all get frustrated with our kids. Mini-me drives me up the freaking wall...all the time!!! You are not alone.
Is Ace getting any new teeth? Wondered if that might be cause for his distress here lately?
Oh dearie, I have the same health care plan-they are EVIL.
Please don't feel guilty for Ace being a preemie. Realize that it was God's plan. This is a learning exercise. God is teaching you something, we as humans are just not enlightened enough to know what it is. Just remember that he is in control.
It must be that kind of day because my little man has driven me up the wall and back down again all day today.
Stacey! I agree... Ben and Jerry's is the way to go.... grab a few on your way to your vacation :)
You are definitely NOT to blame for Ace's prematurity. But you ARE to blame for him growing and thriving as well as he is! You ARE to blame for keeping him protected and away from the dreaded RSV! You ARE to blame for loving him so much that you are not afraid to admit he has some difficulties and needs therapy for them. You ARE to blame for standing up for him and telling folks around him exactly what is expected when he is in their presence.
You ARE to blame for being an awesome mom who is HUMAN. Name me ONE person you have spent 24/7 with who has NOT driven you up a wall? Come on! One.... let me hear it!
Mmmm Hmm... just as I thought. Ya can't do it can ya?
So just remember in between those bites of ooey goodness, blame yourself for being an awesome mommy ...
and try not to get any sticky ice cream on those ADORABLE cheeks when you eat them up :)
** hugs ** Hang in there Sistah!
Jo
Philly's more fun when you sleep over.
vacation! Amazingly enough...you will blame yourself for everything and anything wrong in your child's life for the rest of your life (so I've heard from several wise women my elder)....so vacation....and have a few drinks to wash away the guilt
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